At the end of March, I spent an amazing day with many of you at our “Opening Your Heart” workshop. Before the workshop began I was carrying a bunch of stuff into the building from the parking lot. Among the items I had was a small balloon that said, “I Love You.”
A gust of wind caught the balloon and sent it flying across the parking lot. I set everything down and took off running. As I was chasing after this run-away “I Love You” balloon, a thought occurred to me. How many times in my life have I desperately wanted to hear others say to me, “I love you”? Or, to put another way, how many times have I desperately chased after “I Love You’s”? Let’s just say it was too many times to count. I thought I was done with that destructive behavior and here I was doing it again.
And this was all happening right before I would be facilitating a wonderful day exploring healing and love of self. I laughed out loud. Somebody up there has a great sense of humor.
On a related note, I received an amazing email from a friend thanking me for who I am and for my presence in their life. In the wee morning hours I found myself writing back. Here’s part of what I wrote:
“What do I do with your words? Hmmm… I drink them in — in gratitude for being seen and known. Apparently, my lesson in this lifetime is: Can I see and know myself as the love that I am – even in the presence of others who can’t see or appreciate or value my heart and presence? While I’m writing this, tears pool in my eyes and slide down my cheeks. They are tears of sadness about how I wanted others to see that which I was blind to in myself. I had invested large portions of my life trying to get others to see this in me. And of course, they never did. But my tears are also tears of gratitude for having come to know my own beauty. Now I see love, and I know that I always have been what I have craved to hear for so many, many years. Now I smile because I am finally letting go of that fruitless craving as I am growing into my knowing.”
You get to be seen in the truth of the love that you are too! Please join us for one or many events within the expanding community of Inner Prosperity.
